火

有些事， 忍一时风平浪静

不关自己的事，

最好是不闻不问

最好是假装看不见

但为什么就是有那种人

世上种种人我都能忍，可以体谅

但为什么就是有些人

明明自己有不对

还能厚着脸皮

扮得清高

若不是自己当初看错了人格，

我岂会这么地生气

有些人，

可以说出种种道理

自认威风

就算再多人能被骗过去

我一眼就能看穿

那种人要的不过是成为焦点

要的不过是自认高尚

有些人

可以惹怒我

可以攻击我

可以诋毁我

我都会一一接受

我都会自己处理

但我不许任何人中伤我最关怀的人

尤其是那种

金玉其外

败絮其中的伪君子

我不清高

也不是什么好人

为了那些鸡毛蒜皮的事， 还是会发脾气

虽然不喜欢争执，
但说话也会狠毒

不许任何人如此激怒我

我虽然不会还击

但你一旦让我看清

我就永远都不会原谅你

Sophistication isn't what you wear or who you know,

Of pushing people down to get you where you want to go

我不會讓你失望

   It has been quite long since I posted something 0.0 Which is something that Ms. Honeydew reminded me too when we had our very first video call session recently! Yay!! I miss my Annoyings a lot, and I didn't know how much I misssed them until I actually talked to her. It is so hard to get updated on their lives now :(
We had a rather depressing conversation on what to do after we graduate pre-U, and I couldn't give much insight on that， and also I was rather shocked at how much I don't know what I am planning to do. But, but, BUT, I am slowly getting on track with my planning now, because ...if you fail to plan, you plan to fail?

My lesser-known love recently released a new MV for an old song called 我不会让你失望。 This is him:

The handsome Mr 謝和弦/ Ｒ.Chord, one of  my best discoveries ever. Lets just say he was one of those...

problematic artists, but he has so much unique raw talent, as many of his fans like to emphasize on....

 and I just love him so much!!!! *.* *.*  

Fangirling aside, I am so happy that he made an MV for this song, because this is just the time for one 

of those inspirational songs. Basically it speaks about how he will meet the expectations of those who 

love him, and that is exactly what I am feeling right now. I think that what we we have to do right now is 

to stop being depressed and go for it, whatever 'it' may be. Ms. Honeydew...we shall work hard together,

okay :) 

  

Finally, and of course, lyrics time:

我不會讓你們失望 我會帶著信念去闖

從來不怕跌倒受傷 又怎樣

你要我勇敢

你要我坚强

我不会忘

你要我认真打拼

你要我好好做人

我不会让你失望

 Have a happy day everyone,

Lexie 

Thank You, I Really Appreciate It

      Yesterday, we had one of those awesome motivational talks again. Yes, awesome, because it truly was! I mean the basic ideas that were conveyed were quite similar to the talks I've heard before, but I guess there was an extra touch of fun in the talk yesterday. The speaker was also one of those funny 'bersemangat' guys as most of them are, but difference is, he...asked us to sing a lot? And a lot of things he said I actually took quite seriously for once. We ended up quoting him a lot today :)

     Of course the basic point is to get us students to be motivated for our exams. But I mostly got things that we should apply in life to be happier in general. We get upset about a lot of things, and sometimes we feel like we can't control how we feel, but I am starting to think that maybe telling ourselves positive things can really work. Mostly I tried substituting 'I am so tired' with 'I feel great' today. =.=    

    One of the things I kept in mind is the way to express your thanks. Apparently thank you or 谢谢 isn't enough, because it doesn't show how you feel inside. Terima kasih on the other hand is good, because it means 'I accept your love'. When he mentioned that I felt that it does sound kinda sweet. So one of the better ways to say it is this - Thank you, I really appreciate it.

Quick quiz: who is the most 'gentlemanly' guy in my class?

Answer: Mr. G!

     I don't know if after today he is really leaving us forever, because even he himself couldn't (or wouldn't) give a straight answer. But if he is, he didn't say goodbye! I even reminded him about it too! =.=  Anyway, I guess it's true that you don't feel very much about something/someone until that thing is gone. I am going to miss him. :( He is really a gentleman, and many girls will agree about it too. He can be a bit childish, quite indifferent about many things, sleeps a lot in class, but he is no doubt a very nice guy. Not to mention the amount of general knowledge he knows, especially about wars! Two memorable things that happened last year -

Firstly, we were doing our chemy. experiment. What I said was this: "where did you get the conical flask?'
He replied with this: "I'll help you take."   NUFF SAID.

Secondly, he asked me to help him pass up his file to the teacher's office, even though we were supposed to go together. I agreed, (with slight complaints xp). But what ended up happening was , he said 'no bah no bah' like he always does, and he helped me take mine down instead. Again, NUFF SAID.

And don't even get me started with how he acts around us in his house, so polite I can't even put it into words. Awh. I am really going to miss him!! :( I hope he gets more serious in a new environment, and of course I hope he will do well in the future! If I can make a conclusion to everything I want to say to him...

Thank you for everything, I really appreciate it.

   Have a happy day everyone,

Lexie

  

Things that remind me of you

Well, to Mr. Tsubasa who apparently has been viewing my blog like...500 times, sorry for not posting in such a long time xp. Happy holidays, btw!

This morning, on the way to school as usual, I spotted something kinda unusual on the road. I didn't really think about it, until it struck me - that car on the road, it's a CUTE. Then I looked at the car plate, and sure enough , that was Mr. Tsubasa's CAR! I wanted to tell my car mate about it, but she was sleeping at the moment, so I told my mum instead. I guess I just wanted to talk about it. There were...unknown people in the car? At least unknown to me, but I was really surprised to see the car in that area. I guess I had some fond memories in that car. One of the things I miss the most sometimes is Mr. Tsubasa driving me around in his car, and I remember the first time I followed his car to the library, I was so excited :D He was the first person (student) to drive me anywhere, and also the first person ever to invite me to the library. * cue 'awwwww' sound* 

Today was a long day, because I stayed back in school then went directly to tuition, and after that, went to buy some things at a supermarket. Sigh. It has been long since I went out at 6:00 a.m and came back at 7:00 p.m, and wearing my school uniform too. But as I went in to the supermarket, there was a song playing, and I automatically started smiling while walking. Then I thought to myself - 'Wait, why am I smiling?' then I realized, the song playing at the moment:

Hey Soul Sister

Awwwww. That brings back even more memories. I wonder if today is Mr. Tsubasa remembrance day or something, but things just happened. Oh, not to mention he is ALSO my first singing partner ever.

There are times when I feel like 'I can take on the world', and times when I feel like 'I don't deserve anything'. Today is a weird mixture of both. Worse part is when we got back our Bio results, and teacher gave me quite a long talk about what she thought about my STPM Bio result.  I guess I was 'not serious' enough, but the fact she suddenly started talking about it out of the blue kinda shocked me. Sigh. But when our Pengajian Am result came back though, somehow my only feeling was 'my essay got 7 marks eh , 7 marks! Hahahaha!!' Of course it was no laughing matter, but it was kinda funny to me! Maybe I was just happy it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Mr. Freedom mentioned today too: 'lets get A for Bio next time!' Well, I can try. xp Saw Ms. Chancello post the lyrics of 势在必行 as her status today, wonder if she's feeling 'inspired' about something too? Anyway, what is there to say but - 加油 加油 加油！ :D

  

我跌倒是种成长 我哭是一种释放
我存在不是假象 我不管 我倔强