Well hello there, empty barren wasteland that is my blog. Truth be told, this post is definitely not happening if I didn't have a 'pact' with Mr. Tsubasa. Well a man doesn't go back on his words right ;) Oh boy, now I'm going to start writing....what kind of random, over dramatic thing is going to start pouring out??
What is there to say? Ever since graduation and holidays I haven't been doing anything at all, although everyone else is off to work or even off to study. But as I think back, quite a bit of things have been happening. I have been going out A LOT, it feels like more than I ever did in my whole life. People just keep coming over, my bro, my sis in law, my bro's friends, my own friends. Mr Tsubasa came back and yeah, it was definitely fun ;D . Even during CNY. Usually I go to one, two houses tops but this time, man it was practically a series of visiting. As a result, I started developing the cat mentality - when I'm at home I want to go out, when I go out, I want to be back home. Watched some new movies, and had a truly traumatic movie experience courtesy of Miss Chancello and her extreme emotional reaction. But in a way I feel like my life isn't static, at least not yet. I've met so many new people, and for once, I'm starting to feel like...I actually enjoy meeting new people, instead of feeling like crawling into a hole. Now that is definitely a shocker.
There was also the series of stressful events. Results came out, and oh boy, this is a first. The feeling you get when something finally doesn't suck. You would think I would've heaved a sigh of relieve and go back to sleep ( like I did during sem 2), but nope, this time, after waking parents up in the middle of the night, I stayed awake until morning... doing nothing and thinking about everything. Still one re-sit to go, but it actually doesn't feel bad at all. And I think about how something that is probably not a big deal to someone else feels like the best achievement of my life. Lets not touch on how my re-sit results went though lol. To top that off, driving test finally came, and although I waited and waited and waited the whole day just to go through those measly few tests, but man that feeling you get when it' finally over and you pass. Well I'm one of the last ones to get my license but hey, something finally doesn't suck, AGAIN. And it's times like these when you feel just a little bit bigger than you thought you were.
Now we have entered the phase of 'what are you going to do next? What are you taking? What is your first choice?' Well unfortunately now Miss I-can-do-whatever-I-want-to-do doesn't have a clue what she wants to do. I have my choices, but I don't have THE choice. I don't seem to have a first choice. All of them are just fine to me, and that's why this time I decided to let fate decide and see what I get. Although if I don't get anything then I have to decide myself, and that is another roller coaster ride. It's like I'm expecting a journey to arrive, but I don't have a clue what that journey is going to be. How do you prepare for a journey that you know nothing of?
But as you get a lot, a lot of alone time, you realize that stress and worry is definitely optional. I think my number one trait of overreacting should take a break now, cause there's plenty of time for that when I start studying and get to be around large amounts of people again. Maybe I can actually learn to accept the things I can't change. And remember, remember, remember, that somethingsdon'tmattersomethingsdon'tmatter
somethingsreallydon'tmatter!
Perhaps it's best not to paint a picture of the future sometimes, because a blank canvas can fit way, way more things, things you couldn't even imagine will happen. Who knows, maybe a wizard and some dwarves will come and sweep me away on my very own unexpected journey. Maybe I'll get to fight a dragon. Maybe I'll have fun.
