What Do You See?

Tired.
TIRED.
Tired.....

"How oh you guys at UMS?"
"TIRED!'

It's kinda ridiculous how many times we've uttered the word 'tired' since we've only been in there for two weeks, but MAN are we tired. My house is fifteen minutes away from my uni...that's an awesome thing, and I'm counting my blessings, but somehow once we get inside the gates of of our new home it feels like the outside world is gone. Of course then the weekend comes and I can finally go home...then I sleep through the day and head on right back.

Orientation week was crazy. It was mostly just talks and more talks, but we go to bed at 1-2 smthng a.m and woke up at 4.00 a.m....mostly because their schedules are always delayed and out of whack in general. The most important thing we learnt during orientation is how to FIGHT for the bus - Serious survival skills here, yo! A big thank you to Ms. Psyduck and Ms. Annoying Banana who ran here and there with me to fight for the bus and food hahaha, with blisters on our feet and all that jazz. Orientation week was also the first time I experienced involuntarily falling asleep during a talk, being woken up, and going back to sleep again in less than five seconds. That feeling of not being able to stay awake is not good, not good at all.    

There are different hostel blocks here, most of us (including me) got E, while some got AB or CD...and let me tell you, the quality of the rooms are so much worse in E. Pros we have - more food and stalls, no need for climbing up some crazy hill like they have in CD to get to our room. Cons - smaller space, worse beds, desks, and toilets. I don't know what to think but ya know, we're surviving. And everywhere we go it is walk, walk, walk, WALK. Or wait, wait, wait for the bus. This Uni and it's 999 acres =.= why must it be huge? Why???? I guess we're all going to get super muscles by the end of this semester alone, but when it's one of those days when we're walking everywhere. sweating under the sun with our heavy bags, that whole we're trapped in a different world feeling appears.

I had the most horrific experience during course registration day. We decided to go at 4:30 a.m even though registration opens at 8 , since we were afraid the courses we wanted will be full. Once again, we got to FIGHT. So I set my alarm and all, preparing to face the next day...and when I woke up... it was 5:30 a.m!!!! I freaked out so badly. Turns out my phone ran out of battery so not only did I not wake up at 4, my friends must've called me like crazy. None of them know where my room is by the way and I couldn't turn on my phone because I had to charge it for awhile first and I thought I was going to have a heart attack. When I could finally contact them they were already there, and one of them drove back to fetch me. But the funny thing is, they were actually the first ones right in front of the door, while behind them was a super long line. Man, are they good.      

So after registration and all we headed back and everything was alright...until I went back to my room, decided to draw up my timetable, and realize that Ms Enlightened and I signed up for the wrong section of Japanese class!! That whole waking up at 5:30 feeling came back to me again and of course I started freaking out again, Turns out Ms. Enlightened mistook the timetable for another course's and we went into a frenzy trying to figure out how to settle our problem. We couldn't go to the time we accidentally signed up for since it clashes with our class. After a lot of discussing and "how oh?"and calling here and there we got our friend to change our registration for us and settled for the night class. Phew!

As for our classes...not much has been taught yet. We got a general overview of all our classes, we already have our assignments :( .... and I think I'm going to like Environmental Science. Our scope of learning is way larger than I expected, with diseases, food safety, planetary science and whatever not thrown into the mix. But I think I'm going to like it, for now. On my way to be a tree hugger haha. Not to mention I finally get to learn Japanese, yay! I'm regretting that I didn't learn how to write way back when I was extremely interested in all things Japanese, but I'll just have to keep practising now...a, i, u, e, o.

As for Pengajian Kokum I took modern music with two friends...it was such an unexpected choice, but I am so excited for it! We get to form a band, a band! Yay! We wanted to take the cooking related subject but it was already full...and to think we were the first Science batch to get into the registration room...but I think I'm going to enjoy modern music too, at least I hope I will.

Despite all the grumbling, sweating, walking, not-so-comfortable living condition, not eating any proper meals at all and all the involuntary sleeping (even in class)...there is so much to look forward to. Class hasn't really started but I find myself worrying all the time about whether or not I can finish my assignments with good grades, whether or not I will know what to study and revise, and how much trouble I will run into as time goes by....but I think, you know what, it will all be okay. Just get used to it, just get used to it. It doesn't matter if I'm lucky enough to be near home, trouble is everywhere, but great things are about to happen too. I just need to learn how to relax.

Making new friends is still an ongoing process, although I have Ms. Enlightened with me and that's great! :D Stress and hard work is still on it's way, creeping up towards us...but we will all face it together. Falling in love with Environmental Science is happening gradually, and I hope it will last.

And so, as our Environmental Health lecturer would say......When you look at a river, what do you see? The water flows slowly, but surely, it will reach somewhere far. When you look at a mountain, what do you see? It's not about what you see on the surface, it's what you feel inside.

So tell me Lexin, when you think about your future, what do you see?
      


 

 

Road Trip

I could use one of those days
When life feels like the perfect road trip
It's all sunshine and blue skies
Wind in your hair, like you can take off and fly
The past is merely dust and smoke
and what's ahead are excitement and hope
laughter is compulsory,
and there's no room for worry
Won't you go on a road trip with me?
It doesn't matter if we get lost
We can take in the scenery,
and laugh at pointless jokes
We can sing under the stars,
and keep that feeling in our souls

I could use a road trip
I wonder where the destination will be
Maybe there's so much more to see
Maybe I can set myself free
One day I'll get up and go
I wonder who will join me?

Oh if I can do as I wish,
By then, wherever you might be,
I'll take you along with me

Journey

Well hello there, empty barren wasteland that is my blog. Truth be told, this post is definitely not happening if I didn't have a 'pact' with Mr. Tsubasa. Well a man doesn't go back on his words right ;) Oh boy, now I'm going to start writing....what kind of random, over dramatic thing is going to start pouring out??

What is there to say? Ever since graduation and holidays I haven't been doing anything at all, although everyone else is off to work or even off to study. But as I think back, quite a bit of things have been happening. I have been going out A LOT, it feels like more than I ever did in my whole life. People just keep coming over, my bro, my sis in law, my bro's friends, my own friends. Mr Tsubasa came back and yeah, it was definitely fun ;D . Even during CNY. Usually I go to one, two houses tops but this time, man it was practically a series of visiting. As a result, I started developing the cat mentality - when I'm at home I want to go out, when I go out, I want to be back home. Watched some new movies, and had a truly traumatic movie experience courtesy of Miss Chancello and her extreme emotional reaction. But in a way I feel like my life isn't static, at least not yet. I've met so many new people, and for once, I'm starting to feel like...I actually enjoy meeting new people, instead of feeling like crawling into a hole. Now that is definitely a shocker.

There was also the series of stressful events. Results came out, and oh boy, this is a first. The feeling you get when something finally doesn't suck. You would think I would've heaved a sigh of relieve and go back to sleep ( like I did during sem 2),  but nope, this time, after waking parents up in the middle of the night,  I stayed awake until morning... doing nothing and thinking about everything. Still one re-sit to go, but it actually doesn't feel bad at all. And I think about how something that is probably not a big deal to someone else feels like the best achievement of my life. Lets not touch on how my re-sit results went though lol. To top that off, driving test finally came, and although I waited and waited and waited the whole day just to go through those measly few tests, but man that feeling you get when it' finally over and you pass. Well I'm one of the last ones to get my license but hey, something finally doesn't suck, AGAIN. And it's times like these when you feel just a little bit bigger than you thought you were.

Now we have entered the phase of 'what are you going to do next? What are you taking? What is your first choice?' Well unfortunately now Miss I-can-do-whatever-I-want-to-do doesn't have a clue what she wants to do. I have my choices, but I don't have THE choice. I don't seem to have a first choice. All of them are just fine to me, and that's why this time I decided to let fate decide and see what I get. Although if I don't get anything then I have to decide myself, and that is another roller coaster ride. It's like I'm expecting a journey to arrive, but I don't have a clue what that journey is going to be. How do you prepare for a journey that you know nothing of?

But as you get a lot, a lot of alone time, you realize that stress and worry is definitely optional. I think my number one trait of overreacting should take a break now, cause there's plenty of time for that when I start studying and get to be around large amounts of people again. Maybe I can actually learn to accept the things I can't change. And remember, remember, remember, that somethingsdon'tmattersomethingsdon'tmatter
somethingsreallydon'tmatter!

Perhaps it's best not to paint a picture of the future sometimes, because a blank canvas can fit way, way more things, things you couldn't even imagine will happen. Who knows, maybe a wizard and some dwarves will come and sweep me away on my very own unexpected journey. Maybe I'll get to fight a dragon. Maybe I'll have fun.