Positivity

  Today is the dreaded result day. It was indeed a weird, weird day with all the emotional turmoil and getting sick in my stomach and feeling like crying. Actually, I felt like crying before I checked my results, when people started talking about how they already checked theirs and I thought I was going to really vomit.After I got my results, though, (and it was quite bad btw), I just felt...at peace. A bit worried and upset, but still, relatively peaceful compared to how I was before.

First things first, I think the best result for the Science stream was 2As and 2Bs? To whom it may concern, congrats :) I feel like congratulating those with Bs and Cs too even though many of them felt really disappointed, but hey, at least it was much better than mine. All I wanted was a full pass, seems like I couldn't even get that. :(

  I would say that even the Internet was trying to go against me, because when I was checking my result, it took forever to load, probably needed five or six tries. Then when the thing finally decided to load, I looked at my result and was like '... Okaylah.' I would be fine with it if it wasn't for the fact I need to retake my maths, cause I got a partial pass, D+ (1.33).

As for the other subjects, 3.33, 2.33 and 2.67. Which brings us an average of... 2.42. Believe it or not, I very much expected that, although I am just so, so THANKFUL I didn't get F for either Maths or Chemistry, thank goodness. I thought I was heading that way.

After most of us got our results, the only thing we can do was...talk. We still had our next subject for the school test, but nobody felt like studying at all. We just talked a lot about anything at all, because once we stopped, we kept thinking back to our results. Ms. Banana told me that she is probably going to leave Form 6, along with a few others....( :( don't go~~~~~!). Well that is the power of STPM, huh. I won't leave, but yeah I need to think about a lot of things after this. But now all I want to do is just...relax a bit for once. However, still have Chemistry test tomorrow...what a bad day for the results to come out =.=

I probably should be just a bit more upset about this, but maybe partly why I'm not is because 1) I expected this, even if no one else did, and 2) a whole bunch of people are determined to retake too. Which just brings us back to 'the past is past, now move forward and make it right'. There are so many things to do after this, no need to get all caught up and worried right.

Extra notes:
-Thank you moyang (even though you can't see this) for calling me, made my day!!!
-Btw, Ms. Honeydew, no need to emo, as you can see, my result is much worse than yours (lol)


Good luck to everyone, and may the future hold better things for us!!! :D

Have a happy day everyone,

Lexie

   

Silly worries

    Today is the first day of school tests, and well, I was really, really stressed out about this particular subject because it is virtually impossible to memorize like even...half of what I'm supposed to. Unless I start out really early, which I never do. Maybe I should really start doing that after this. It went okay though, but what matters is when the result comes out. Tomorrow is maths, and as usual, I am not confident in that at all.  

  I don't think that today is the right day to be blogging, but I just felt like posting something. Because that is a part of why people blog right, to get things off their mind? So, what I (unnecessarily) have a lot of now is this:

Worries.

   It is something that happens when I am in a generally nervous/down mood. I worry incessantly about anything and everything. I worry about my current test. I worry about the results of my big exam last year, which is coming out this Thursday. That is probably the biggest source of my worry, because despite what anyone else might think, it is probably NOT going to be good. Our three seniors who were three of the top scorers (in school and also in the state), didn't get straight A's, but in terms of STPM, 3As and 1B is seriously super amazing. *salute*

   And then there is our Biology insect project which just refuses to turn out right. So, we seem to be endlessly working on it, even though we thought we were done with it long ago :(. Our plant project doesn't seem to be working that well too, but it is still going okay I guess. And so, during the holidays, we have our Maths assignment, Chemistry assignment,  my Pengajian Am assignment which is still not done even till today. Thinking about all that makes me a bit sick. I think I am still not a responsible enough person, nor am I scoring an A in the 'handling pressure' department. But I am trying to cope, I am. And sometimes I just wonder...what am I actually worrying about?

But as much as I can worry, life never stops for anyone. And the only option we have, is to be happy. So, buck up, Lexin!! :)

  

      What you need to try, is to try and let it go let it go...

Sunshine and City Lights, will guide you home. :)

 Have a happy day everyone,

Lexie